1.39 Standing free
Broken and destroyed did you leave me and my life,
Telling me that the only way I could get by was with you.
Yet, every day you ground me down, hurt me, tormented me,
All in the name of "the best" and "the greater good" did I suffer.
Now I stand strong and say no more, never again.
Even as I make my stance, I still feel that fear and that dread,
Awaiting those viscous words and for your hand to strike.
My nerves a wreck and the ability to be intimate all but destroyed,
Yet, I persevere and will not give you the final victory.
Once again, I will grow strong, once again I will have the courage to stand my ground.
Now that I have met someone special, a saviour to my life,
I am becoming strong and finding my passions once again, finding hope.
Often, due to you, I look over that bridge and into the murky depths,
Any escape was better than the hell you locked me in, unable to break free.
Now being free I stand stronger than ever, determined with a stronger will.
The future is no longer a dread, but filled with hope, joy and dreams to be lived,
I hereby banish you from my thoughts, from my hatred, contempt and fear.
To feel any form of emotion for you would mean that I still feel,
You are now less than nothing to me, and as these words burn, so does my memory of you.
I am free, free to love, free to smile, free to laugh, free to care, free to share, free to stand, free to
decide, free to be reckless, free to take risks, free to make decisions, free to live my life, free to be me.
I am free.
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Jamie Scott Watkinson-Harvey
Telling me that the only way I could get by was with you.
Yet, every day you ground me down, hurt me, tormented me,
All in the name of "the best" and "the greater good" did I suffer.
Now I stand strong and say no more, never again.
Even as I make my stance, I still feel that fear and that dread,
Awaiting those viscous words and for your hand to strike.
My nerves a wreck and the ability to be intimate all but destroyed,
Yet, I persevere and will not give you the final victory.
Once again, I will grow strong, once again I will have the courage to stand my ground.
Now that I have met someone special, a saviour to my life,
I am becoming strong and finding my passions once again, finding hope.
Often, due to you, I look over that bridge and into the murky depths,
Any escape was better than the hell you locked me in, unable to break free.
Now being free I stand stronger than ever, determined with a stronger will.
The future is no longer a dread, but filled with hope, joy and dreams to be lived,
I hereby banish you from my thoughts, from my hatred, contempt and fear.
To feel any form of emotion for you would mean that I still feel,
You are now less than nothing to me, and as these words burn, so does my memory of you.
I am free, free to love, free to smile, free to laugh, free to care, free to share, free to stand, free to
decide, free to be reckless, free to take risks, free to make decisions, free to live my life, free to be me.
I am free.
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Jamie Scott Watkinson-Harvey